My day at work yesterday was less than awesome. Let’s just say that after an hour of crying after being bombarded with some not so exciting news, I had a hard time recovering. I’m still bummed today but trying to find the silver linings in an otherwise uncontrolable situation. So I went home yesterday and started dinner like always. I knew I had to take pictures but I just didn’t have it in me to get my camera together. I knew once I snapped a few I’d feel so much better but the thought of looking through my lens through glassy eyes and seeing something beautiful wasn’t something I was ready for. I wanted to sulk and hang my head. Luckily my girls made that impossible for me.

I turned around from the stove and saw Livie walking around like this. She put that hat on all by herself and was walking around singing with her musical teapot.

At that point I surrendered and said to myself “Ok God. I get it. There’s plenty to smile about and hanging my head all evening after not seeing my girls all day is just NOT ok.” So I changed my attitude. I once again let my girls heal me.

And Hannah, my big girl. I can’t tell you enough what an amazing little person she is. She talked my ear off all the way home from Nana’s house and I don’t know if she knew, but I needed that distraction. And when I came down from putting Livie to bed and saw my big girl watching the TV that she turned on by herself and eating the Lunchable that she opened up by herself…well, I was proud.

And grateful that she’s so grown up and when her mother is having a slight meltdown of a night, she pulls her own weight and takes a bath without me asking her to and works the TV alone and gets her own snack. I needed that because my head was just not in the game last night. I really don’t know how I would make it through sad or hard times without them.